Jan 26, 2015

Our miscarriage made us realize how helpless you can be as a parent – that there are things beyond your control - and how your love for your child is immediately and spontaneously unconditional.  

We’re deeply saddened but at the same time, profoundly comforted by the prayers and kind words from our family and friends.  

We’re also very thankful for our doctor, May Anne Tabaquero, who kept her lines open for us, patiently walking us through every question, every pain, every indication and every risk.

When we got the diagnosis at week 8 that it was a "blighted ovum" or "anembryonic pregnancy" (the sac formed but the embryo didn’t), we started preparing for the worst but the hope for a miracle never died.

at week six

On the 24th night of January 2015 (at week 10), after hours of severe cramping and intermittent heavy bleeding, my wife finally passed some tissues - the size of golf balls - out.   

I felt my wife’s sadness especially from week 8 to 10 when she would crave for certain foods and physically experience what every expecting woman experiences and then suddenly, she would cry - knowing that we’re expecting a miscarriage.

She wrote this note during that painful waiting period:

If God chooses to give you to us, we are privileged.
If God chooses to take you away, you will be in better hands.
Daddy & Mommy love you so much! But God loves you most.”

In life, there’s no guarantee that everything will be okay. But what we have is something better – our Heavenly Father – who knows what it’s like to lose a child.

He also promises that though there’s weeping for a night, rejoicing comes in the morning. He is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.   

We thank you God for giving your Son’s life as payment for our sins for us to be saved. We also thank you for determining the number of our days.

A person’s days are determined; you have decreed the number of his months and have set limits he cannot exceed. Job 14:5 (NIV)

Help us not forget how important it is to love those that we have in our life now. In Jesus name, Amen.

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