Our miscarriage made us realize
how helpless you can be as a parent – that there are things beyond your control
- and how your love for your child is immediately and spontaneously
unconditional.
We’re deeply saddened but at the
same time, profoundly comforted by the prayers and kind words from our family
and friends.
We’re also very thankful for our
doctor, May Anne Tabaquero, who kept her lines open for us, patiently walking us through every question, every pain,
every indication and every risk.
When we got the diagnosis at week
8 that it was a "blighted ovum" or "anembryonic pregnancy" (the sac
formed but the embryo didn’t), we started preparing for the worst but the hope
for a miracle never died.
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| at week six |
On the 24th night of January 2015
(at week 10), after hours of severe cramping and intermittent heavy bleeding, my wife
finally passed some tissues - the size of golf balls - out.
I felt my wife’s sadness
especially from week 8 to 10 when she would crave for certain foods and
physically experience what every expecting woman experiences and then suddenly, she
would cry - knowing that we’re expecting a miscarriage.
She wrote this note during that
painful waiting period:
“If God chooses to give you to us, we are privileged.
If God chooses to take you away,
you will be in better hands.
Daddy & Mommy love you so
much! But God loves you most.”
In life, there’s no guarantee
that everything will be okay. But what we have is something better – our Heavenly
Father – who knows what it’s like to lose a child.
He also promises that though
there’s weeping for a night, rejoicing comes in the morning. He is close to
the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
We thank you God for giving your
Son’s life as payment for our sins for us to be saved. We also thank you for determining the number of our days.
A person’s days are determined;
you have decreed the number of his months and have set limits he cannot exceed.
Job 14:5 (NIV)
Help us not forget how important it is
to love those that we have in our life now. In Jesus name, Amen.
